Leading up to Mother’s Day, I had told myself to not have
high expectations of this day. To simply see where the day would take me, and
stay off social media as much as possible. Your dad and sister of course went
all the way out to make my day special. You know them. They took me to my
favorite brunch place downtown, Sarah even agreed to take some pictures with me
(you know how rare that is J),
and we walked around downtown. It was a beautiful sunny Sunday, probably the
nicest Mother’s Day weather we have had in a long time. They then sent me off
to the spa for some relaxation and alone time. It was the Mother’s Day I never
had, since I always wanted to stay close to you, to home. Today, it was the
right thing to do. Mix it up from what I have done in the last ten years with
you.
On my way home, I went to your school. I sat down on your
bench right under that big tree. Someone had put a medal on your plaque. I was
wondering if it was from the fun run this spring? It reminded me how I took you
in your large stroller last year around and around your school so you could
finish your run with your friends. I especially remember using all my strength
to get you up the hill at the same time as I was trying to keep the stroller as
still as I could due to your broken leg! I am glad I didn’t know last year it
would be your last fun run, and instead your memorial bench would be next to
the trail this year. Your school teacher sent me a note about you as I was
sitting on the bench. I also felt your soul in that big tree shadowing your
bench today. Thanks for visiting with me.
I ended the day with the people who love you the most, your
dad and sister. They made a very special dinner, and look what Sarah made me? I
cried, but it was happy tears.
Sweet Jacob, I love you to the moon and back,
mom.
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